Thursday, May 31, 2007

The day my family fell apart

Then on Wendsday morning at 9:20a.m. I texted him because he usually calls me on his 9 a.m. break just to see what was up and he replied to my text with a text that he thought we needed to take a break. What?! Was my text back. And so we met up out by his work to talk and I gave him back my ring and my car, but I felt like my heart was being ripped out. I love this man with all my heart. He is my soul. Then he makes even worse by saying he is depressed and he has been for like a month and a half now and he was just pretending everything was o.k. So I gathered up some of my stuff, because he told me not to take it all. My father went over and got my daughters crib and clothing. Then he wouldn't even talk to me and explain what was making this all happen. Later that night after my daughter couldn't sleep since she was in a new place and I couldn't sleep I went over there to get my pillows and I saw him sleeping there all peacefully and I thought I was going to kill him. So I woke him up to tell him that he was the one who needed the space and the baby was upset that we were moving home on Sunday and if he wanted to leave he could, but I wished he would stay and he kept blowing me off and then he got up and tried to leave, so I took almost all the keys and outside we went all I wanted to know was why all of a sudden he wanted to rip our little family apart. And he kept trying to get past me to the car and he let my cat out so we needed to catch him and he threw the keys at me and they fell on the ground. Then he gave up trying to catch my cat and tried to push past me to get the keys and I was trying to push him back and hit him and he threw me on the ground and left me there crying. I ran to my car a minute later and followed him we had many heated arguments on the phone. I finally called him and told him I was going home to find my cat and then I would leave. So we caught my cat together and then we talked some and at first he said he was going to talk to me on Thursday and I said no. And I cried for like an hour and a half, because my cat and dog were with me and I felt like I wouldn't get to see them and they are all part of our family. The only thing I wanted to do was save my marriage and then I came back to my moms and went to bed.

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