The day after my family fell apart

I texted my husband at work to tell him that I did want to talk to him today and he said not to f*ckin bother him at work and he still mad at me and not to talk to him until Sunday. So I went to our house to let the dog out to potty and to feed and water the animals and his grandma that we live with was outside. Usually every morning she comes up to see the baby and she asked me where the baby was and I told her that we had moved back to my moms but that we would be moving back on Sunday and that maybe he would be moving out. And she said if I wanted to move back in I could. She was so nice, but I couldn't stop crying as I told everything (but the physical fight) that was going on.
I just wonder what I did or what happened that would push him to tear our happy family apart. All I have even wanted from him is to know so we could work on it, I don't want our baby to grow up in a broken home and I just love him so much that I couldn't eat. I still just feel absolutely blindsided and like I am in some terrible nightmare all the time. I am just going to give him his space for know but it is hard, because our daughter looks just like him and every time I look at her I see him and I remember how it used to be or how I thought it was. It is my only wish in this world that he would come to his senses and see how great his family is and come home to us. I just worry that he wants to see other people and even when I asked him if he wanted to fix this he said he wasn't sure. How can you do that to someone you claim to love and have a child with???? Who is this monster that took over my husbands body and where is the sweet man I love, if you see him could you tell him to come back to his wife and daughter who miss him very much, Please?

The day my family fell apart

Then on Wendsday morning at 9:20a.m. I texted him because he usually calls me on his 9 a.m. break just to see what was up and he replied to my text with a text that he thought we needed to take a break. What?! Was my text back. And so we met up out by his work to talk and I gave him back my ring and my car, but I felt like my heart was being ripped out. I love this man with all my heart. He is my soul. Then he makes even worse by saying he is depressed and he has been for like a month and a half now and he was just pretending everything was o.k. So I gathered up some of my stuff, because he told me not to take it all. My father went over and got my daughters crib and clothing. Then he wouldn't even talk to me and explain what was making this all happen. Later that night after my daughter couldn't sleep since she was in a new place and I couldn't sleep I went over there to get my pillows and I saw him sleeping there all peacefully and I thought I was going to kill him. So I woke him up to tell him that he was the one who needed the space and the baby was upset that we were moving home on Sunday and if he wanted to leave he could, but I wished he would stay and he kept blowing me off and then he got up and tried to leave, so I took almost all the keys and outside we went all I wanted to know was why all of a sudden he wanted to rip our little family apart. And he kept trying to get past me to the car and he let my cat out so we needed to catch him and he threw the keys at me and they fell on the ground. Then he gave up trying to catch my cat and tried to push past me to get the keys and I was trying to push him back and hit him and he threw me on the ground and left me there crying. I ran to my car a minute later and followed him we had many heated arguments on the phone. I finally called him and told him I was going home to find my cat and then I would leave. So we caught my cat together and then we talked some and at first he said he was going to talk to me on Thursday and I said no. And I cried for like an hour and a half, because my cat and dog were with me and I felt like I wouldn't get to see them and they are all part of our family. The only thing I wanted to do was save my marriage and then I came back to my moms and went to bed.

leading up to...

My husband and I were suposed to go on vacation up north, but our finances wouldn't allow for the gas and we already had memorial weekend off so we decided to just stay around home. On Saturday my parents said they would watch the baby all night and I was going to go out with some friends and he decided to go out mudding and drinking with his friends and he would return home on Sunday. My plans fell through, so I just kept the baby. I tried to get ahold of him on Sunday to see when he would be home and he didn't answer my calls, so after trying for about an hour (he always answers his phone for me) I was worried and I called his friend who said he already left and that his phone was messing up and so when he got home we dried it out(he got water in it from mudding) and it worked fine. We got in an argument about him not letting me know about the phone and worrying me.
On Monday we were talking and his friend called and said he was going to a derbyand so of course my husband wanted to go and I got upset because he was already leaving the next day to pick up a car they were buying and I felt like he should spend one day out of our vacation together with our baby and then he dropped the bomb on me that he was not sure if he wanted to go to school anymore. So that led to an argument and he left at one in the afternoon and didn't return home until after ten o'clock at night.
On Tuesday he still went with his friend to go pick up that car and we got in an argument because it was our last day off together and he had barely seen me or the baby, but he left anyway. I had a dress filtting at 7 o'clock for a wedding I am in and I needed him home by six and he couldn't make it, so i had to ruin my moms plans for dinner and she watched her while I went. So that turned into a fight of course, but we talked about it and I thought it was over, we were even intimate later that night. And off he went to work the next day.

School and marriage

In early March my husband I decided we needed to goet into school and so we went to the college and filled out our financial aid stuff and there lied yet another obstacle, since we were not married and he had filed her on his taxes he was the only one who could claim her, so I was not eligible for any money due to the fact that my father makes decent money. The goverment does not take into account my fathers bills. So on our way out we decided to get married. It was something we always talked about and always planned on doing, so we jumped ahead a little bit and the next week we went and got married.
The morning started off horrible their was a lot of obstacles, but we overcame them and were married.

Uh-oh pregnancy

Then in March of 2006 just over two years after we got together I got really sick. I thought it was the flu but when it lasted over two weeks I decided to take a pregnancy test. Just as I had feared I was pregnant as I come out of the bathroom in tears I tell him. The first thing he does is look up at me and ask me if he is going to have to sell his truck. (What a goof ball) At this point we had only been moved out on our own for less than two months. We moved into the upstairs duplex of his grandmothers house, but it was our own and we painted it and cleaned it all up and we were happy. The pregnancy was very hard with lots of morning sickness and other issues. In late March he was let go from his job due to management changes, so that was very stressful. Then to top it off mid-April I was let go from my employment at U-Haul Moving and Storage due to my inability to pump propane becasue of my pregnancy. So neither one of us was working and it was very hard, but through the whole thing he stood right by me telling me not to worry even as U-Haul is trying to fight my unemployment, and he was right less than two weeks after that he got a full time job. So everything went great, except that my stubborn baby wouldn't drop, so I was induced on November 4 and on November 5 after 13 long hard hours of labor I delivered our beautiful daughter, but that was far from the end of that she was taken from me and moved to a children's hospital because they thought she was having seizures, but four days later we were allowed to take her home and she has been growing and thriving ever since.

My boyfriend

I met my husband almost four years ago through a mutual friend. He had a girlfriend of three years at the time that he was living with. When we met though the chemistry was undeniable. I was working at a sporting good store and he would come in and talk to me every night and after work we would always go out. After a few weeks of this his girlfriend had enough and cleared her stuff out while we were out with another friend. We basically just partied and hung out with all our friends, then on Christmas Eve we went to a party and we were laying in bed together and he kissed me. From then until January 9 we just hung out then he told me he was going to take me to his familys cabin up north and on the way he asked me to be his girlfriend it was all so cute and sweet and when we got up there quite an adventure we had. We couldn't get the heat to work in the cabin, it was -10 outside and we tried to just huddle together, but it was just to cold. So off we went to go home when the car started over heating we couldn't drive more than 45mph and we had to pull over every hour or so to let the car cool off. We were going to take turns driving home, but I fell a sleep and he never woke me up he drove seven hours home in the middle of the night without the radio on just so he wouldn't disturb me, by that point I knew he was an amazing guy.

Me

I am a 21 year old female in Michigan. I love my family I am pretty calm and relaxed now but in the past that has not always held true. I just came out of my wild party days about two years ago and am entirely happy being a mom, a great wife, and going to school. I also work part time at a video store, the job is very boring, but the people I work with are amazing.