A long night

Thursday night on my way home from work I decided to stop by the house and let our dog out to go potty. When I get there at after 11 my husband is not home. I immediatley look to see if the normal stuff he needs to stay the night at someone's house is there. It is all there even his cell phone charger and since his cell is attached at his hip that is very strange. So I call some of his friends and nobody has seen him he won't answers anyone's call and I am very concerned because as we all know I totally still love him. So he texts me at after 6a.m to let me know he is o.k. after I am up most the night worrying about him. Friday afternoon I decided to go up to his work for his break just to let him know that my sister bought a car, I talked to one of our old friends and that I really do miss him and I really wanted a hug. It has been very hard for me to go from seeing someone everyday and being the mother of their child to never seeing or even talking to him and I swear it doesn't seem to even be affecting him in the least. And you can't even imagine how much that hurts. But when I get there I think we can be civil and that maybe he would be glad to see me because he misses me, too. No not really he calls me as I am sitting in the parking lot and he says what do you think you're doing and I explained to him that I just wanted to tell him those few things and get a hug and he ended up yelling at me about how I am not giving him any space and stuff. So I will not talk to him again until Sunday, but when I was calling his friends last night one of them told me that he plans on going mudding on saturday and if he does that then we will talk because our daughter misses him so much and if he is planning on dropping her off at his moms and not even seeing her for the full two days he has her then that would be horrible. Every time the door open she looks up and you can just tell that she is waiting for him. Then to top all that off since this has happened on Wendsday he has not even called once to see how she is. As sad and as pitiful as I feel the only thing I want is to go home and be part of my family again.